Nicole Fields

I’m special you know but my family doesn’t know yet. It’s the 6th may 1988 I have just arrived
7lb 6oz with blonde hair and big blue eyes. They are all so happy but all that will change very
soon.

It’s time for them to be told I won’t ever walk and what few words I can say will disappear.
Poor mummy and daddy they are so sad but what they don’t know is I am going to show everyone a
different kind of love and happiness.

I’m 9 year old now with long curly hair and a big smile that I can use to get my own way. I’m
starting to have problems with chest infections, which worries my family. They have read about my
syndrome and know it will get worse. They ask my doctors a lot of questions so they can learn as
much as possible to be ready for my future.

My mummy has tried hard to keep me well and to keep me away from people with bad coughs, flu’s,
bug’s and infections. She has done well as I am 16 now my family and doctors are very surprised as
I have been very sick in the past.

This is my worse infection ever it just won’t go away. My family are starting to worry as they can
see all the antibiotics are not working and I am getting weaker. I wish I could talk now just to
tell my family it’s ok. To tell my mummy she has done all she could and worked very hard to get me
to16.

I am tired now fighting this infection I don’t need to talk my mummy knows by my eyes this is how
we talk to each other she can see how sick I am. She whispers in my ear and tells me that she will
be ok if I was too tired to fight and want to go. It’s my daddies turn he tells me how much he
love’s me ( as if I don’t know already) he tells me he will be ok if I was ready to go.

They take me in their arms and 5minuntes later I slip away back to heaven were I came from I was
only lent for a short while. I am one of heavens silent angels. It’s my turn to look after my
family to help them cope with life without me. I will enjoy caring for them the way they enjoyed
caring for me. (HEAVEHS SILENT ANGEL)





My Nicole when back to heaven on 24th sept 04 age 16. She took another chest infection but this time
she just couldn't fight it. she was such a happy child she used her eyes to talk we knew when
she would be saying i love you or go away. Nicole was sleeping alot near the end she was to weak to
open her eye but on the day the doctors told us there was nothing more they could do she opened her
eye wide to tell me it's ok i'm ready to go now. I couldn't look at her because i
knew what she was saying and i didn't want to hear it but she watched me until i looked. After
that she never opened her eyes again and 3 days later at home she waited until i whispered in her
ear( i would be ok if it was her time to go) her daddy whispered to ,then she fell asleep forever in
our arms. We miss her so much it hurts, she was such a good child always happy and smiling anyone
who knew her loved her. She will never be forgotten as she is talked about every day. Sweet dreams
Missy Mo until we meet again.xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxxo